My heart feels tingly,not the kind when you like someone or your on the highway heading towards disneyland or disney world but the kind of tingle where you have a bad feeling with yourself.
Although i know i'm probably over-reacting stupidly because i have emotions and i've pretty much had trouble falling asleep last night by forgetting to take my medicine and staying up all day; I can't help but feel fear.
I will openly admit i'm scared,stressed and overwhelmed.
I'm pretty no extremely worried that my crush will like someone else and want to form a relationship with them and although i know that wont happen,i don't exactly know for sure. I did expect the day to happen when Zero (We'll call him that) decides to have sex and that i'm completely 100% on its just,i know how relationships of friends-with-benefits turn into. you'll start missing what a real relationship is like and especially if you've never had one you could mix up the two.
For someone like me with trust issues,Anxiety and mild depression i struggle with every day life because i know that life can just throw a fast ball at you when you're not expecting it. Its just if the power happens to go out while your printing out an important paper. Its scary but you can't help but panic.
My heart calmed down after i wrote that,i feel much better now.
Thanks for reading if you did read all of this non-sense.
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